Nothing like a “new year reflection” post in February, am I right?
Truth be told though, this video is much more than musing on the year past. This encapsulates the feeling of watching an old life, an old self, melt away, while knowing that the new skin has not yet quite fully formed. Here I am, standing in between two lives — wondering when the next one is going to take shape, while no longer able to fall back into the comfort of the past.
This video tightens my chest every single time I watch it, without fail — I am so intimately familiar with the girl who has lived these experiences (yes, me, but a past me, a me in process or a me in a different quantum field if you believe in that sort of thing), the vulnerability and the fear and the play and the risk and the heartbreak and the excitement and the unknown that went into constructing an entirely new life.
I’m proud of her. And while I still feel on the cusp, like the new year hasn’t happened yet but it’s already halfway through February, looking back on vignettes from last year reminds me how much change erupts from the tiniest of shifts.
Speak soon. Promise.
xx mm